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[scarvedforlife]

Ya-ho! This is the voicemail of the one and only Shogun! Sorry for not picking up, but the energetic life of a mad scientist waits for no call! It does check for messages though, so feel free to leave one.

Bye bye!

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Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

...I think he is going to try to.

[Holds up a note that reads: "It pains me to say this, but let's stay apart going forward."]

But it looks like he is courting Cypress, and it seems he is slowly making friends.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

... so he doesn't think he can move forward if he keeps being reminded of his past through you.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

I think so. And I do understand. If you are overwhelmed with anger, you cannot see the other emotions.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

Buuut you wanted to be a part of his new future?

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

[Hides her face behind the sheep.]

[Nods.]

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

[ Leaning forward and off his chair so he can wrap his arms around her. ]

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

[She cannot hug back atm as she is determined to hold the sheep doll against her face, but she does lean into the hug anyway.]

I cannot help but feel sad.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

[ Rubbing her back. ]

Pretty sure you're more than allowed to feel sad.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

...I think I feel jealous, too. I don't like it.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

Because you don't get to be a part of it?

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

[nod nod nod nod]

He will smile kindly to others.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

A grudge is a hard thing to get over. But maybe when he's had time, he'll be able to smile for you.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

...I do not think it is something I can hope for. I have tried, but I do not think I can do it.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

[ Leaning his weight more heavily against her. ]

You're pretty strong to have gotten this far with things the way they are.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

A lot of people say that so they must be telling the truth, but still, it's strange to hear.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

I mean, if it were me, I would have completely avoided him in the thought that nothing could ever happen.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

But what if that is what I should have done?

[finally lowers the sheep from her face and scooched even closer to Sho]

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

You'd probably make yourself more and more miserable, not knowing for sure. You at least tried.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

...I did try. But now there is nothing else I can do.

[:(]

And that is why I am sad.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

There's one last thing, isn't there? Waiting.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

Waiting?

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

The him right now can't handle a relationship with you. But there's no saying that the him later, after he's had his growth, can't either. It might be a long shot, it might not ever happen, but it means waiting for him to approach you if he ever feels ready.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

...

Do you really think so? Even though I am the wretched thing he hates the most?

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[scarvedforlife]

People and feelings can change. Not always, but sometimes.

You're the one who's shown me that.

Re: after the christmas party sometime

[nohalation]

[Hides her face again.]

Thank you, beloved Masaomi. I can wait, I think.